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Baby,top.
Well, today will be abit like reflections. Yes the ones where your teacher ask you to take out a piece of paper and write down, what do think, feel about a particular thing and blah blah..
Overall, i find this CIP very meaningful as it is like an eye-opener to us Singaporeans. We are very lucky to be living in very comfortable places. Normally, parents and teachers like to say that we are very fortunate and looks like they are right, big time. At the orphanage, they don't even have proper bathing area and sanitation area. Their rooms are like very stuffy and no fans at all! At least we have something to cool us when we are hot. they don't. Their rooms is practically a very dull place before we add colours to their lives.
At a school right next to the orphanage, normally we would have some 'words of wisdom' or something
there is one which i must comment on
STUDY NOW OR STUPID FOREVER.
what are your thoughts on this?
Baby,top.
Leave Me Alone
I'm getting tired of you pushing me 'round
Dragging me down
Making a sound because you wanna
I guess that's why I like messing with you
Putting you through
A lesson or two, because I'm gonna
Before I go my own way
I just gotta say
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired and alone
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
Guess I know I'm better off on my own, so whoa
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
'Cause I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown
So oh, Leave me alone
There was the time I thought you were the one
Having some fun
Getting it done
What an illusion
'Cause you were trying to take control of me
That couldn't be, I need to be free of this confusion
Don't give me a guilt trip, 'cause I'm so over it
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired and alone
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
Guess I know I'm better off on my own, so whoa
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
'Cause I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown
So oh, leave me alone
Don't turn around and don't look back
I see right through all your selfless acts
Oh
Leave me alone
Get out of my face
I'm tired of love
Feeling so misplaced
Time for you to go
Guess I know I'm better off on my own, oh
Leave me alone
This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown
So oh, leave me alone
If you leave me alone
I'm so better on my own
Leave me alone
Baby,top.
Hey Blog! Today's post will be something different from what i normally post. Today, I'm going to list 15 things that i am proud of doing in 2009 and insert my 2010 resolutions. Don't worry, nothing related to my activities today.
15 things that I'm proud of doing in 2009
Getting myself into 4N.
Getting myself a new phone
Keeping in touch with relatives on my father's side
Did not have any cold war with Hilmi
Maintained my friendship with Wahidah, Jinghui to name a few
Finally getting my own room
Found a new hobby
Best rate of me going to NPCC over the 3 years in this cca
Being more open to people
Having friends who will be by your side, through thick or thin
New profound friendship with Hilmi, Farah, Diana,Nadia, Siti, Wahidah, Jinghui, Natalie and the list does not stop there
Tried my very best to help people
Kept a wallet for more than 6 months(even though it is in very bad condition now, but still useable)
completed reading at least 50 books
improved my standard of malay with the help of Hilmi, cikgu mas
Now, for my 2010 resolutions
To be at home before 5 pm everyday, expect during cca days
Read 60 books
to start praying
getting a part-time job to help to pay for N-Level
Getting promoted to 5N.
Stop being very stubborn
Not to make hasty decisions
stop delaying things
have a makeover
stop doing stupid stuff
To be a good son, friend, uncle, citizen by doing something that will make people proud of me
overcome my fear of heights
have more than 1000 songs in song file
Well, i'm turning 16 in a few days. So, i'm going to be more mature(Yeah right). Well, GOING TO WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR! START THE YEAR FRESH, AND DO IT RIGHT. 2010.
PS: This is going to be my very last post in 2009.
Baby,top.
Hey Blogg!
Day 2 of break up. Guess What, I feel so much better now! Wawa is feeling much better, Jonathan, I hope he is.
Well, 6 more days till school starts! Can't wait for it man! At least I have so much other better things to do. Other than being stuck at home or wasting time outside. God I miss my class! And the teachers, screaming and all sorts. Well, still working on my resolutions. Will post that up before 31/12/09.
7 more days till my sweet 16. Can't wait for it. I just want something that is blue, has a pocket in the middle and it is a cartoon character. Most importantly, spending time with the people I love.
Let's drop that topic for now okays?
Well today, thank god there were no noise man! Lazed around, showered, and help my mum abit with the cooking. Then, slacked till 1.55. went to shower and left home for Toa Payoh Central to meet Wahidah. Well, when I was in 231W, she told me that she will be meeting me at 3.30 instead of 2pm. Nevermind, I went to the arcade and played initial-D. Then, texed hilmi and he agreed to meet. Then, went down and bought fries and sprite at Popeye's, which opened at the entertainment centre.
Hilmi arrived with his working uniform covered over his cardigan. Then, wawa came. She was like sad due to yesterday's news. Gave her the fries. Ate. Then left for library where she went to appeal for a course in ITE Bishan. Then, we went to Sky garden. Slacked, tried to make Wahidah happy at the same time. Finally had the chance to bitch around with Hilmi. It feels like years ever since we bitched around. Well, he is my bfff mah. He left. Then, it was me and Wahidah. Singed and lol-ing at there.
Then, we got hungry. Brought her to Popeye's to have our dinner. Only when we were at the counter when I saw my CI's- Yong Zhi, Yong Kang and a female CI, which I don't really know what is her name. We bought 2 piece chicken. Sat next to them. Chatted with them. Disturbed them. Talked briefly about Yong Zhi's NS. He is botak. Have quite a number of mosquito bites on his neck and his hand. Awkward at first but it ended up fun. Called Farah and disturbed her since Yong Zhi is her scandal. If you are wondering what scandal? It is only known in BHNP. Then, left. Went to HDB Hub. Walked. Bought battery for my alarm clock.
Then, trained home. Now, blogging. Going to do homework later and then clean up the room just to look for somethings before sleeping. Tomorrow, going NTUC with mum in the morning. Will be meeting Hilmi and Aliyah to do our homework together at Toa Payoh Library. Have yet to complete the 2008 N-Level questions and Chemistry Ten Year Series. The cerpen on the other hand, parts of it is already done. Going to copy from Hilmi.
Well, signing off now
With Love
Stranger
Baby,top.
Hey Blogg!!
It has been a day since I ended my relationship with Nikki. Frankly speaking, I still have feelings for her but I seriously need to forget about her. Look at what she has done to you. Do you want to let history repeat itself? I don't think so. Now, it's time for me to move on and see what the future has installed for me. I'm not going to waste my time, thinking of a person who is a complete stranger. Guess what, I'M SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT YOU.
Well, other than my heart-break, I am sad to hear 2 different news about my friends who I treat as my own brother and sister. Will go into detail later.
Well, today, I went out with Jonathan Chiang. Went to Lau Pa Sat at Raffles Place to eat at Wendy's. Seriously, the food there rox! You guys should try it someday. Then, bused down to Boon Lay Interchange. Saw the new interchange. Very nice but the way they arrange buses is seriously cocked up. They can just switch some feeder or Trunk services to the end-on berth and the JIS over to the sawtooth berth. End-on berths are already having a hard time moving in and out. Not sure about the sawtooth side. Nevermind.
Then went to arcade. Got a phone call from George and Raj. They were like asking if my birthday is on the 5th. As much I would love to deny it, I can't. It's all written over my facebook and also blogger. God! Note to anyone who wishes to give me a birthday bash. NO FLOUR, EGGS, CREAMS(WHIPPED AND SHAVING) or anything that will get my clothes dirty. I don't mind if you were to punch me or whack me or throw water balloons. Would want presents coming in. I want something that is blue, has a pocket in a middle. A Japanese cartoon character. Does it ring a bell?
Then bused down to Jonathan's ex place at Toh Tuck. Got back whatever it was. I was kinda harsh with him there. Then, bused down to Toa Payoh Lor 5 when I became his listening ear throughout the journey and also at the park itself. I mean, for what must you still care about that girl after what she and her ex have done to you? Learn from this mistake. Afterall, it's puppy love. God! Why am I saying this to other people when I myself was like him the day before? Then, went home. Hope that he will be strong and just to let him know that I will be by his side whenever, wherever he needs me. I believe in helping others when they are down. At least try to show them the bright side and maybe have a joke or 2 about it. It's part of life anyways. It's like you fall down. Get up, work on it. Maybe, success will come knocking on your door and prove them wrong. They will surely regret whatever they said or do. Trust me. It will happen.
Then, walked with mum downstairs to get fresh air. Went to get waffles and cake. Seriously, when I'm downstairs, I look at other kids with their parents. All very happy. I was like, why can't I be just like them? Especially seeing sons doing things with their dads. It just reminds me of dad, in heaven. He was the man who taught me quite a number of things, always cheering me up when I'm down. Being my personal ATM when I needed money to spend. I regretted not going to the hospital the day before his death. Normally, I would go there and bring food for him, either prepared by mum or myself. I know that he would say the food is good even it might not be. He was a headstrong person. Even though he had gone through a lot in his life. Having lost his parents when he was a teenager, being treated badly and sorts before meeting my mum whom showered him love. And most importantly, for giving the 3 of us a chance to live in this earth. I know that 1st sis was his favorite child and 2nd sis was not, he still loved both of them. And of course, me, being his only son. I remember the times where his will tell his life stories, that I grew interested and his advices, oh, I feel like crying now. Normally, l would ask the same very question(s)-How did you met mum and How were your siblings? Without hesitation he will explain to me. Now, he only has a living younger sister, my aunt. Aunt Sita, who is now living in London. The last time she visited was in 2005. I was 11 at that time. I would go out with her every single day, being her personal tour-guide. She would normally call in or I call her. Heard that she will be moving to another house. I just can't wait for her to come over to Singapore again, along with my cousins. I have not seen her children and also her grand-children. Well, talked to Lisa, Lemar and Rihanna(I'm not sure on how to spell her name) couple of times.
Well, the other bad news that I heard today was Wahidah was rejected from every course she chose in ITE. I was like, what is wrong with the education system here? Well, tomorrow will be accompanying her to appeal for at least a place in one of the courses she wants. I seriously hate when she is being picked by her family and friends. Try putting yourself in her shoes and you will know, how is it like being rejected. Hopefully that the appeal will be successful. Wawa, I will always be there when you need me. Just give me a call or text and I'll try my very best to help you. Looking at her, having 2 different jobs, just to support herself and her grand mum. I mean for a 16 year old, she is a very strong person. A workaholic, I must say. A person who is willing to sacrifice her time and freedom just to look for cash, it seriously has craved an impression on me. Even though we may fight over petty things at times, she is really a sister-figure to me.
Don't worry Jinghui, Hilmi, Diana, Nadia, Siti, Farah to name a few. You guys are important to me also. Sisters Forever!
Well, I'm going to head to my crib and see what has tomorrow installed for me.
With Love!
Stranger
When you fail something, don't brood over it. Work on the mistake. Improve from it. You will see the results that you yearn for, that is SUCCESS!
Baby,top.
211209-271209
well, it lasted 6 days. The six days i spent loving someone who is not even worth loving anyways. Thank you Asry! Thank You VERY MUCH! Thank you for getting me to know someone who would just be a bitch, slut and a whore! Seriously, why did you even want us to get to know each other?
Nikki Azura Bte Azfar. A Beautiful Liar. I thought you were better than that. Looks like you prove me very wrong. I Seriously regretted wasting money on you when i could just spend on myself or someone who is worth it! You could have just been honest with me. Why do you even enjoy toying around with my feelings? Giving empty promises, being OVER Controlling, Very Pushy, and of course, a liar!
Stood me up when we were supposed to meet at ION. That was supposedly to be our second outing together. Well, ingored my calls, text. Replied like hours later, asking for money. Giving excuses. You want to know what?
Extracted from a sms:
" Bie, can I borrow 20 bucks? I just got fined for jaywalking. Pls?! Thank you.:)"
I was kind enough to do a funds-transfer to you. Make it 2 fund transfers! Still not enough! After that, completely ingored my messages or calls. I was like, is she just using me? And besides, Fine for Jaywalking is around a few hundred. I know that underpayment of fares or something then the fine is 20 bucks.
Thank god I realised and decided to dump you. I Mean, you are totally not my time anyways!
Don't worry, your pictures are gone, your number is already deleted, all the messages sent to you-ARE ALL DELETED! AND NO NEED TO PAY BACK THE MONEY!
edited--
Well, i'll end here
Hate that i love you girl!
Baby,top.
Hey blogg!! 9 more days to my sweet sixteen. Can't wait for it man! Wonder what will i get for my birthday. Well, let me blog about Saturday first okay?
Woke up at 9am. Lazed on my bed till 11am. Went to cook potato sambal. Then, found out that sis already did a funds transfer for my allowance. Very Happy!!! Finally get to spend on myself. Withdrew $XXXX.(will not enclose the real amount here). Then, texted jinghui. Decided to go suntec city and watch movie. Then, went home to change and went to meet Jinghui at her place. By the time I reached her place, it was raining cats and dogs. Went to her house to seek shelter. Left her place at 1515 and took 851 to City Hall MRT. Walked along city link mall. Ate at Thai express. We ordered Seafood Tom Yam, Chicken Green Curry, Chicken Rice , Glutinous Mango dessert and chendol, Watermelon lime and Lime Bandung. Well, it was worth eating there. Ended up being full. It costs us $57++ for our meal for 2. then, headed for a sushi shop where we bought sushi for ourselves and Jinghui's college. Then, we headed for suntec city. Went to her working place. Passed the sushi. Then, we went to book tickets for Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. Cost of 2 tix: $19. went to arcade to kill off time. Headed back to the cinema. Bought popcorn, nachos, Ben and Jerry's ice cream(cookie dough flavor) and 2 sprite. Movie lasted around 1 h 30 mins. Nice movie. My ratings out of 10: 10! a full 10! Yes! 10!
Then, we headed back to her working place and chatted with her college. Cabbed home. Taxi fare: $15. Got home. Kena nagged like no tomorrow! I did my chores already and my mum had the cheek to say that I have been slacking for the whole 2 months. If I were to slack for that long, I won't be bothered by you! I'm 15 and turning 16 soon and I am fighting for my freedom! What is with the curfew? 7Pm to be at home everyday, no matter it's a school day or what? I mean like, am I 10? People my age are already getting the freedom they long yearn. Going home late at night and stuff. Why can't I be just like them? I hate at the fact that I'm being controlled like a puppet. Well, after that, washed clothes and slacked.
Thinking of going to JB alone tomorrow. God knows what am I getting for myself anyways.
Well, that's Saturday's drama.
Well that is it,
with love,
stranger
Life's too short to do what you are told.
Baby,top.
Hey Guys!
Well, im attached now! To: Nikki Azura Bte Azfar. Will comment on it another time. 211209 ILY!
Well, it is just 14 more days for me to be 15. After that, i would be 16. When i turn 16, i have to be less playful and more serious. Well, all i want for my sweet 16 would be me spending time together with the whole family. I know that will never be possible since everyone is forever busy with their own businesses.
A day out with my closest friends will just make me happy. There are very few people who have been by my side whenever I needed someone. They were the light at the end of tunnel when I am having problems, forever advising me to make me into a better person. Personally, there are such friends who are willing to do that. Those are what I call true friends.
Well, my last 2 weeks of being free before school term starts. I seriously need to adjust my sleeping time. Forever sleeping at 3am and waking up at 12-1pm. That is not good. I need to have an early night. Maybe lights off at 10.30pm? I am willing to make that possible. I just need determination. Yeah, that should be the key.
Academic wise, can't afford to waste time doing whatever I want to do during lesson time. Seriously, I need to be serious and on task. It is already a miracle that I managed to get into 4N3 next year. Of course, Jinghui did tutor me to help me. Very thankful for that time wasted on me when she has to focus on her O-Levels. If she fails, I am just going to blame myself for being selfish to ask her for her help. But on the bright side, I am helping her to revise at the same time.
Style- I seriously need to change my style. Enough of me wearing black or red or white every time I go out. I seriously need a wide range of colours. T-shirts, they are not it. I need to own at least 5 formal looks. Jeans, 3 pairs is not enough! Pants, I can't depend on school pants or NPCC pants. I need a proper pants. And also a tie would be nice. Not to mention my hair style. I need to have a hairstyle that makes me more presentable and fresh.
Shoes! God! It is so hard to find a shoe that is my size. Always shoe sizes ends at 11 or 12. I'm a 13. In the end, I have no choice but to wear slippers. No wonder fashion police is always after me. Hahahaha. Joking only, since when got fashion police?
Oh ya, stop making my mum scream at me over the smallest problem and have a petty arguments with her. Try to make her proud by producing good results and I need to stop being rebellious to anyone. I cant have everything to go my way. Sometimes, it is worth to follow one's way. She's already old. After all, she is my only living parent. Wish dad was here sometimes. My personal ATM and also my pillar of strength. Always giving me advices and showering me with all the love that he could. Now, he is just part of my memory. It is hard to let him go but I have done it. May he rest in peace. Well, I've dedicated him a song. When you're gone by Avril Lavigne. When you hear me listening to that song, that is when I am thinking of him.
Well, long blog post. I know. Will blog soon okays!
With Love,
Stranger
Ignorance is Bliss
Baby,top.
Hey! it's the 14th day of december now
For me, i just want the day to go as fast as possible.
It is just plain boring as most of the time, i have nothing to do
When i'm with my friends, i just want to be alone
When i'm alone, i want to be with people
Gosh i miss my friends!
At home, it does not feel better anyway.
When im at home, i just want to get out.
When im out, i just want to go home.
God knows what am i feeling.
Sometimes, things that i've planned to do is being postponed for god knows what reason!
Is there anything wrong with me?
Why can't i think straight?
I just feel like exploding at times,
but i just cant.
God what the hell is happening to you Yusuf?
When i think of all the stupid things i did,
i will be like"what the hell was i thinking"
When i start to think of all the things,
i will be like"there is always a day that you can do"
But it does not happen at all!
God! I Miss my childhood days!
Always carefree and naive
Now, im just plain stubborn
even i hate being myself at times
Oh My God! What am i thinking?
I hope that there will be light at the end of the tunnel
answers there for me to solve this dilemma that i'm going through
I hate being in this situation
Like a lost child in a shopping mall, looking for help
Life is just how it is. Love it or hate it, this is how you make your life to be
Baby,top.
Hey!
First Post of December 2009. Well, 5 days has passed. Today is 5/12/2009, which means Farah is turning 15 in 2 days, Kristal in 14 days, Hilmi in 15 days, Faiqah in 16 days and Vanice(my cute little smurf) in 20 days. For you people who can't really calculate it, Farah-07 Dec, Kristal-18 Dec, Hilmi-19 Dec, Faiqah-20 Dec and Vanice-24 Dec. For me, i have exactly 1 whole month to be 15 before i turn 16. Again, im turning 16 on the 5th of January. Yes, im getting a year older. More white hair, more expectations and also more STRESS!! Yes, i said it out loud. The good thing that you get a year older is that you have benefits to go to a certain place, watch a certain movie with a certain rating. Yes! I can watch NC-16 movies without worrying about anything. Story cut short-Everyone is getting a year older. BE MORE MATURE.
Well,i am now going to blog over my first 4 days in Dec 2009.
Tues 1/12/2009.
When I woke up, I was like “ there is only 1 more month to go. Make this month the most unique among the 11 months you have wasted.” Yes, I was being paranoid over some things. But never mind. Went to clean the house. Cooked 2 dishes. After that, went to meet Wahidah at Toa Payoh Central. Ate and left for City Square to meet Ahmad the Douche bag. Well we walked around the mall. Went to level 4. Ahmad went to survey an IT shop over a router. Right next to that shop, we saw Jie Xin there. She was like nervous as it was her first day working there. To support her, I bought a sticker and passed it to Wahidah. Then, we walked until 5.30 where Wahidah left for work. Waited with Ahmad for his father's arrival. At around 7.30, his father came to the same IT Shop to buy that router. It took them a good 1 whole hour just to purchase that damn thing. After that, his father gave me a ride home. In my head, I was like why is the father very good whereas the son is like something that I don't wish to describe here. Well, thanked his father for the ride. Got home. Talked to Jinghui for about 40 mins. Then went to sleep.
Wed 2/12/2009
Woke up, accompanied mum to the NTUC to get the stuff. Then had breakfast at Fork and Spoon. Went home. Rest. Cooked. Then left home. Went to meet the NPCC people at Shaw Plaza to discuss about the BBQ things. Well, in the end, I had to book the pit and end up paying for it. Never mind, went home with Farhah and Si Min. Got home. Laze around and eventually stone. Slept at 2am as I was watching Britney:For The Record on my laptop.
Thurs 3/12/2009
Snoop Dogg never go work. I was like, what the hell! Never mind. Clear up home. Cooked. Went to Dhoby Ghaut. Waited for Wahidah's train at Novena before heading to Dhoby Ghaut. Met Ahmad at the Cathay. Booked 5 tickets for New Moon. The other 2 tickets goes to Ahmad's Sister-Kak Iza and his mum. Watched New Moon. Walked to Plaza Singapura. Split from Kak Iza and Ahmad's Mum along with Wahidah. Went home with Ahmad. Did nothing much. Slept after watching The Devil Wears Prada.
Fri 4/12/2009
Snoop Dogg never go work again! This time round, he rudely woke me up when I was already awake? Watched Oprah. Suddenly, Sister came back. Had breakfast together. LOL-ING with each other. It rained cats and dogs. Snoop Dogg go for Friday Prayers. Sister went to meet her friend or something. Me, stayed home and entertain mum until Wahidah asked me to meet her up. Something happened. My phone fell into the toilet bowl while I was changing! What the HELL!! 30 mins later, it went haywire. Sadden over what happened. Went to Toa Payoh Interchange. Met her, went to Hougang by taking bus 159. Played LAN at Hougang Green. Then, went to Hougang Mall and eat KFC. From there, we went to Hougang Central Interchange and she took 51 to meet her grandmother and me, took 151 to Hougang Ave 3 and took cab the rest of the way home. Taxi ride cost me 13.00. I was like, never mind. Came in, Snoop Dogg was eating. This is how the conversation goes.
SD- Snoop Dogg ME-Myself
SD: Where you go?
Me: The Community Centre, there.
SD: With Who? For What?
Me: pauses... Alone...ignored the other part of the question
SD: Go and boil water.
Me: ORH OK. Cursed him like no tomorrow in my heart.
Went into the room, place down bag on my bed. Went into the kitchen, do whatever he asked me to do.
Few minutes later,
Mum: What are you doing?
Me: In the kitchen, boiling water.
Mum: What?
Me: Boiling Water.
Mum: He cannot do it himself ah? He thinks what, we are his maid? Everything has to be ready for him. What has he been doing inside his room the whole day? Pauses... Never mind, massage me.
Me: ORH OK
After massaging my mother, went to check if water is boiled. Turned off the stove. Watch TV. Then went into the room. Stone. Wahidah called. Went to conference with Hilmi. Eventually slept.
If you were to ask me, my day sucked as it gets closer to 2010. sometimes, I crave for ME-time. I just want to be alone. I want to get air. Who likes to be controlled like a ragdoll? Well, I just leave the rest to fate.
PS: I'm still brooding over my phone! Im forced to use the spare phone! By the way, I am going to change my number later and also going to Sony Centre to repair my baby!
Well, this is it.
With Love,
Stranger
Never ever bring your phone to the toilet!
Baby,top.
hello, new song added...
not going to blog much.
can't wait for monday!
so much fun
well, signing off
with love,
stranger
*song is Untouched and I Look To You
Baby,top.
haha very random title..
well will blog abt yesterday
Well, it was raining the whole time. Nothing much to say expect that i am upset over 4 things that happened today. Today, went out with Jonathan and Alvin. We met up at Yishun, then we at at LJS. Alvin did not realise that the coupon had expired. Well, 3 of us were hungry so we went picking on what we wanted to eat. When we were ququeing for food, i realized that the coupons given were already expired. So, i turned to him and he actually realized as well. Then, i ate Golden Deal 1, 3pc chicken. We went to Yishun int, Jonathan wanted to take 800, we saw a new bus on 854(which is a yutong bus), Alvin and I ditched him. We took that bus for 1 stop, then we took 169 for another stop before switching to 812. 169 and 812 were bendies, i love bendie buses. They rock. Then, we meet Jonathan again at Yishun Interchange. We went to take 85, which we took all the way to Punggol int. Then we went to take 136 to Ang Mo Kio Interchange. Jonathan slept and I took random pics with that specs of mine. By the time we reached AMK, Jonathan wanted to take 136 out to the stop outside AMKHUB while i wanted to take 138. I gave instead and took 136. Then we crossed over and took 136 again to the interchange. After that, Alvin parted ways with us. So, Jonathan and I took 130 to Upper Thomson. Then, we switched to 410W to Bishan Interchange. Along the way, stage came and practally Jonathan Ingored me. I was like, whatever man. Then, I went to 59 berth. Saw the bus will take 4ever to arrive. It was 7.35 and on the TV Screen, it shows that the next departure of 59 is at 7.48pm. I actually wanted to take the train home but i switched my mind to take 59 home. Jonathan and Stage took 56 and practially ingored me. What else, i just ingored them and waited for 59. When i was in 59, i was thinking, why did he just simply ingored me just to be with stage, at least just tell me that you want to be with him. Anything wrong with that? I won't get angry without any reason. At least Alvin was smsing me throughout the whole time. Another reason why i was angry today is Jonathan Chiang.That idiot asked me to drink beer with him. Hello, does he knw that i am anti-beer person? That thing made my dad die. Not only that, cigarettes. If he was not an alcoholic or smoker, he would still be here today. When i miss him, I think of the good times we spent together. He has made alot of sacrifise just to keep me alive. Well, he is not just my father, but he is my best friend. I know i touched cigarettes but still, i know that is wrong. I admit that i used to smoke. But now i dont. He was basically trying to force me to say yes. When i told him why i did not want to drink, i did not really tell him why i don't want to join him. Third thing, Siti. Who does she think she is? The bbq that i planned for Hilmi, Farah and Haziq, it takes time to get everything sorted. She goes around asking people to go. I was like, does it all have to go according to you? The bbq that i planned, Nadia and Diana helped with me. Thank god i have good friends like them. Sisters Forever!!
Don't really want to go into that much in it. Don't want to get even angrier.
Last thing that made me angry, I did not take 3793B and 293Y. WTH!! Those buses are where memories were made. Those are only some. Thank god i managed to take my primary school bus which is 494J. Well, going to sleep now. CYA THEN!!
With Love,
Stranger
Don't ever regret doing anything. It is just blessing in disguise.
Baby,top.
It is the holidays now.... Very bored.
I think i am going to rot at home
But Nevermind,
im sure im going to do something
Btw: IM Changing my blogskin.
IM Changing the song
Im going to make it more appealing
To you haters out there:
You hate my style, get lost. At least im not a poser. I have my own sense of style.
the skin is still from the veronicas. Why?
My favourite girl band
Baby,top.
Baby,top.
Hello readers!!
today is the last day of school. Yeah my last day of being a sec 3 student. For those of you who are going up to sec 4, congrads!! those of you who are retaining at sec 3, don't give up. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Today, we went to discovery centre. It was damn boring. after that, i went out with sisters!! It was quite okay. now im at home. going to link people up and reply tags.
well cya then
With Love
Stranger
Baby,top.
Holla!!! it has been such a long time ever since i've actually blogged...HHAHAHA...Today im super hyper happy!!!! English Paper was like easy.... Aim for English: B3 or Higher...B4>F9...Go find 1 mirror and slap yourself-that is what Mrs Raj said....Wonder why...
Paper 1-
Part 1 has 6 question. i chose the question that has the topic entitled:REGRETS. Basically i wrote about me being an only child, had everything in the world, at 14-im starting to rot... caught by police for smoking and drinking,parents disappointed,went home, kena questioning, just went out, stayed at grandmum hm, regretted after 3 days, went back, retained 1 more year, make use of the chance...
typical compo
second part was related to the test... Mrs Raj only changed the President of the PSG to a parent...th rest was the same.
Paper 2-
i spent 55 mins doing it. first 45 mins-sleep, middle-do,end-stoned.
after school
went to kitchen, did test, went home, stoning
well signing off..
will come back soon(I PROMISE!!)
BYEBYE!!
Baby,top.
hello readers...
sorry for not posting for a very long time. Busy with alot of things that seemed to get my attention away from myself.Basically, i hate my results to the core. The whole class failed English lea!!! im like why you two dogs come in to the class and make us fail. One 40-year old virgin, another stupid soccer stud wannabe. I wold rather have Ms Chiang or Mrs Raj come and teach... Math, Mr Pang never add 20 marks to my CA...GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!! Physics, im happy, gt improve...Chemistry, also the same..Malay, curse that ujian...F&N, ms yati, why paper so hard? Geog, no hope!!
Now, it is holidays, wondering what is Baby doing now....Missing her every minute.. Currently in Jinghui's place and baking things. well,that is it for now..
signing off
With love,
stranger
Baby,top.
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Hi Readers!!!!
Happy National Day...44 Years since Singapore gained Independence...
Well, to celebrate the day, i've decided to relink my blog...
Well, the pictures were taken by Nadia at Ah Hood Observance Ceremony this morning.
Well, it did not really went smoothly but still, it was very enjoyable.
well, signing off...
with Love
Stranger
Evacuate The Dancefloor
Baby,top.
Hi there...
have not been blogging for quite some time....
well, i am going to keep short...tomorrow is the National Day observence ceremony...can't wait for it to happen
Baby,top.
well, i know it is kinda late but i can't sleep. so decided to go and blog...
well, this week sucks to the core....i will try my best to summarize everything and try not to miss out any important things....
but firstly, i want to show something
beware: it may look gory to those who cannot take it...
well...i cut myself....i know very stupid but that was what i can think of just now. I was like damn fucked up!! Problems after problems. When will it ever ends????
monday: Went to school...as per normal. did not bring thumbdrive so play facebook throughout the f&n lesson. Then went to tpy with jon(my bestie/gay partner)[LOL] and ahmad... stupid ahmad, take people cigarette. since it was raining, i did something stupid.
Tuesday: Another sucky day.... The day that Endy(The Fucker) and me are no longer friends. I was like...what is your problem? if you don't like my attituide, then get lost... I am who i am. You want to be childish, fine! I did try to sort things out but you don't wish to. Don't you ever say i did nothing. Went to Hougang sec to see Jinghui get her medal. Wahidah was the one who told me why endy is like distancing away from me. how much longer are you going to keep me in the dark?
wednesday: had medical appointment. ok lah.... then went to school. after school, go smoke. then invite jonathan to my house. fried chicken for him. then went to smoke break. then went tamp and meet ahmad. then headed for serangoon where jonathan went to wushu. ahmad help buy viceroy. that stupid noob, go take half of it. This is why i hate sharing my cig with him. He ps me at serangoon. Basically emo until my place.
today: I just hate it. school just made it worser. jonathan basically skipped 4 periods. I on the other hand, was just feeling like in denial for no reason. I even cut my hands. i would have cut more but i did not continue beacause that stupid noob(ahmad took my penknife)... PC lesson, jonathan got whacked by the girls...i do not want to enclose why for some reasons. then, kena lectured by lee yp, lim pc, kamsari just beacuse i cut myself. i was like, my hand, my problem...then, went to tpy. went hm. went ntuc and found out that muz and ika finally stead!! Congrads to them. Wish them all the best. then went meet jonathan at bedok res. took like 3-5 sticks from him. then, went home. watched channel v. until now online.
now is 31 july:Natasha Birthday...Happy birthday Natasha!!!
well signing off...
with love
stranger
everyone is maksed. You don't know what is behind it
Baby,top.
well, today is just an ordinary bad day with a twist. It lagi worse than bad day. i'm sure you have feel the same thing. basically i'm not going to blog the day's activities. but i am going to blog something that i just wrote.
Running away from home.
i have been wanting to run away since young. but on the 23/7, i actually did it. i'm kinda thankful that i have someone who is able to give me all the encouragements to move on. well, i've blog about him like trice but i think i should again. he has just joined the school like less than a month and i actually am able to trust him instantly. usually, for me to trust someone, it takes a very long time to build that foundation level of mutual trust. but for this case, it is totally different. not only he had offer me shelter and company, he is willing to sacrifice his luxury of being at home for me. if it is were'nt for him, i would be on the streets alone, wandering and figuring out what is my final destination. eventhough there is not even a single penny to my name, i am lucky that i have something to lst for two meals, he is even lending me money(which i'm wondering how am i going to repay back his kindess). i have to go through this bittersweet experience. through hot and cold. i hope by doing this, i am able to send out a message, a message that i've been yearning to tell. IT IS ENOUGH!!!I GET THE FUCKING POINT THAT YOU ARE TRYING TO SEND ACROSS!! Give me A dumb freaking break? is it hard?? i have been just keeping mum through all the cursing, swearing and the occasion of kicking me out of the damn house. am i even a part of the family?? or am i just some kid that you picked up along the streets, somewhere long time ago?do you even know how it feels? it is just like the world is against me. instead, i turn to my friends, who i think can give me all the moral encouragements. do you know how i feel? it is like licking a saliva that has already been spat and licking it again. i know that i am learning to make the right choices in making friends. give me time. i ave to adapt to it. i just wished that baba was here. he was just like my pillar of strength. i know that someone loves him more. it is painful, but i have to let it go eventually. well, i'm not sure when i am going to return back home but one think is for sure, i hope that i have made the right choice.
YUSUF OH YUSUF
YUSUF OH YUSUF
MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES.
IT IS TIME YOU SHOW THEM WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF
MAKE THEM REGRET EVERYTHING THEY HAVE DONE AND SAID BEFORE
I HOPE THAT THIS IS MY WAKE UP CALL
STAND UP AND FACE THE BATTLE. IT AWAITS YOU
Well, i'm signing off frm jonathan's place
with love,
stranger
choose the correct path. it has many rewards waiting
Baby,top.
Well, im back!!! Now maths lesson. Pang bring us to lab. Ok ah...
Yesterday i was really happy. Why? My LAPTOP IS FINALLY FIXED!!! Massive usage from the time the thing is fixed to 12.30am. Yes 12.30am. Then, went to bed.
This morning...
Woke up at 5.45am. Cleaned up kitchen. Left home like 6.20. Reached school 20 minutes later. Hahahaha...why? 232 and 56 came on the spot.
1st period-English: Hate it man!!! Listened to song while charging my phone in class.
2nd period-Geography: Spamming Jonathan. Listening to songs.
3rd period-PE: Walked around school. did nothing much. Like machiam free period liddat.
4th period-Malay: Did not bring file up. Left the damn consent form in it. ok ah. Then, Mas nagged and tried to pintpoint me. I was like what the hell? Why me?
Recess: Was with hilmi the whole time. Then, his mom and his stupid nosey sister came to school. Why you ask? Spamming Ridhwan's blog... Spammer? Who the hell are you?Mr kamsari can even make joke about it.
6th period-Geography(Again): Finally do some gradient shit. Listening to song at the same time.
7th period-Chemistry: Er doing some period table crap. Listening to song(again)
8th period-Maths: Finally did the math worksheet.
9th period-Maths: In lab
will continue later when i get home
Bye!
with love
stranger
EDITTED!!!!!!
I'M kinda in jonathan's place and blogging. well, it was fun and also full of F.J.L(Fun, Joy and Laughter)... ok, took 59 from my place and walked abit. Near tampines mart seyh!!! dekat ngan umah cik azizah... nvm, went to his*favourite place*.... smoked and took photos. then went back to his place and watched some videos. There is one particular video that i liked. SHUT UP!!! I KILL YOU!!! LOLING all the way... then, singed the song that i sang to my baby.... What song? Fall for you. Singer? Find out yourself... The best part, jonathan treat me water...feel so pampered..hahahahaaha. at the middle of the fun part, ariffah called me. Asked me to help her in maths. My maths is already down the drain and still want me to help...dotz... then, smsed her and fun starts again. his papa came home. ok lahs... kinda tak puas hati liddat... his brother, kinda short..hahahahaha.... ok lah, family qiute nice... ok lahs, later continue when i get back. Will take 59 and hope it does not take a long time...
I'M UNSTOPPABLE!!
Baby,top.
heya! well, school ended like 23 minutes ago and here i am blogging. Hate today lea.
Summary of what happened
Reached school at 7am. Went to office do PA duty. Today fashion Disaster was the one doing the morning assembly. After that went back to class. Found out that Jonathan ran away from home. After that Ms Chamb(the school principal came in)... She started to talk about the air con before Lim PC start to remind her of the seating arrangement. She left, fts left. Switch on AC
1St period Maths: Pang came in. i was too busy eating my roti boyan. Gave me pink slip. i was like what the HELL!!! Half the class eating and i am the only one who you gave pink slip. Then, Jasmine got pink slip because she talked. i was like so what? other people are talking also mah... Stupid PANG!!
2nd period English: Shit! Forgot to bring earpiece. Then, borrowed earpiece from Lih Shiuan. Then went to listen to songs. She teach and i listen to music. She come, i Act pretend to pay attention to her stupid boring lesson.
3rd-4th period F&N: 10 mins in class talking about time plan. After that went to lab. only spent 5 minutes and the rest of the time, HELPING OTHERS LORHS!!!
Recess: Ate rice, then went to see tania and jinghui. Suddenly, lih shiuan called. Said Lee YP wants to see me. Find her. Pretended to listen to her.
6th period cme: her stupid lesson other than geog. She talk, i sms. Fun right?
last period (my favourite) phyics: Ow came in and teached for 25 mins. the rest, free time. Ahmad kena bashed in class. Now in comp lab. Will be leaving now.
Well, take care...
With LOVE
Stranger
Behave yourself
Baby,top.
Been wondering for a very long time, am i a really a bad person? Or am i out just to hurt people? Today, she found out about the thing. Im like, who the hell told you. I did not want to enclose the real person behind the rumour. In a way, i am covering up for someone else's mistake. I did want to mention all the bad things she has done but i just kept quiet. All bottled up in my heart. Nevermind. After that got malay test. For the first time it was easy. Recess....SUCKS!! Double Geography.. Hate the damn Lee YP Man!!!Scream and scream and scream. If she, my mom and tarzan are stuck on a island together, i think there will be war all day long. She is like screaming. And the worst thing, i actually yelled at her and just gave her attituide. Thank god i controlled my temper and did not push down the table. Things could just get ugly. Plugged in earpiece in the end and just listen to song until the last period, which is PC. PC....Hate it man..but love it at the same time. Now at computer lab, finishing the last part of F&N-which is my time plan for coursework practical. Well got to go guys.
take care,
With Love
Stranger
Never ever let emotions get over you
Baby,top.
Well, i'm back to blog again...
I think thinking, talking to myself brings out alot of things.
Like example, are my friends really my friends? Am i part of my family or an outsider?
i will point out some things here
1. School and friends are just part of life. As time goes by,it's gone. I am starting to have issues regarding trusting my friends. Ever since Jonathan joined us, i am kinda close to him but after going out to Escape, he is fading away. Ahmad, i don't even know i should trust him or not. He is like befriending me and at the same time betraying me. I think i only can trust certain people in 3n3. Who? Find out yourself. Hilmi, Priscilla, Abigail, Athena and a few more people who i think i can count on. The rest, when happy, together, sad, get lost!
2. Family- I don't even think that i belong in the right family. Everyone is making a fuss on me. What? Am i the bastard of the family? Always giving bad luck? I only can count on one person, My elder sis, who is working as a air stewardess. She is the only one i can just tell my secrets too. Well, she is afterall my mother's favourite child. My mom? Wait for her good mood. If not, you can just forget it.. Now, my kitchen is going through a makeover. It is darn messy. Everyday, i have to come home and clean up before eating or doing anything i want to.
Haiz, why must it be so boring?
Dont want to think about it anymore.
signing off.
With love
Stranger
Choose your friends wisely
Baby,top.
well,
second week already and i'm hating it.... Well, it is kinda complicated...
the week went on just like that...
very short i know, more will come
well, going off now
with love,
stranger
Curiousity kills the cat
Baby,top.
Well, two days since school started. This is the last period. Well there is a new kid in class....He is Jonathan. Well, he is ok. Better than that fucking Stevenson!!!!! Only know how to filrt with girls...Monitor also epic fail.... Well, we broke up.Yes we broke up... Dun wan to talk futher....That spoilt my day...Well, looking forword to a better day ahead. Hilmi came back with some injuriies and he was wearing a mask. I just had to disturb him...But still, he is like my brother...No matter how bad am i to him, he is still there for me... At least better than someone...
well, i'm signing off
With Love,
Stranger
"Always remember to embrace now than to regret the moment later"
Baby,top.
hey people,
Time flies very fast, espcially when you are totally in demand....
I just realized that school is going to open like very soon. I am like one of those few people who do not expect school holidays to be extended for a simple reason....Now holiday, later september, no holiday liaos. Haiz, i have not even touched a single thing at all.
Homework in order
English:
NOTHING
Maths:
Lead.com homework
Physics:
NOTHING
Chemistry:
Chemistry Worksheet
Soical Studies:
NOTHING
Geogtaphy:
Is there any?
Malay:
Frasa Berbunga
Projek Melayu(IDK What is the topic at all!!)
F&N
Coursework-Decision Making, time plan, ingredients list, equipment list, edit the previous coursework
Aarrragh!!!!I don't even know how to do a single thing. Only 1 thing to blame: Why did'nt i pay attention in class?
Nevermind, must chiong through during the weekends...Can't wait for school to open again
Things to bring:
Thermometer
Travel Declaration Form
What to expect:
Treat Zhaskia to Movie
My money from Ms Lim PC!!!
Well, signing off...
With Love,
Stranger
Nobody is Perfect!
Baby,top.
Hi people...
Just changed my blog skin, again....
okay, basically, the rest of the week after STC are rather boring.
Will not comment on that. Really miss STC like hell lea
Well, i will be signing off
With Love
Stranger
Do not let your emotions get over you
Baby,top.
Hey...i'm back from STC and i will tell how fun it was man...
okay, monday 15/6
Woke up at 5.45am. Went to shower and left home at 6.30am. Took 232 and changed to 57. Reach bus stop at 6.55am.Ate prata with Keith and Jun Ze joined later. Then, half of sec 3 people were gathering and we went up together. Si Hao was there.I was like OMG! WHY IS HE GOING???? Left school at 8.15 and reached changi Jetty like much later. Then took a bumboat to Ubin. Went to Meeting Point 1 and that is when we were split to our groups. I was in Alpha(later known as Aunties). Basically, Si Min and I were in the samg group. Well, we had 20 people and were like strangers. Then, we played a game.Got to know each other. Then, proceed to the 1st activity. Walked to Chek Java. Along the way, i felt uneasy, when reached the Chek Java, i went to the toilet to puke. Got a stomach ache and was driven back to the campsite. This time, it is at Noordin Campsite, nearer to the exit. Group came back..slept and then went for lunch. After lunch, went to pitch tent. I was in M1, Together with Marcus Goh,Luke, Louis, Kelvin. Then, went to discuss about group performance. Dinner. A reflection session. Share some points with the group. I find it good to share. Then, debrief by Yue Wen Sir... Went back to tent and had a little 'sex joke' and chatted before lights off. I did not slept. Kelvin and Louis was basically next to me and i am somewhere near the middle, so limited space.
Tues 16/6
Woke up at 5.30am. Went to shower. Breakfast. Then went for the ropes challange. I must say that i was scared to death a first but still, have to overcome. After completeing, i felt that i have achieved something and really, i had the urge to do it again. Then went back and discuss about group performance. We deciced to do a skit. Went for lunch...I must really thank the HCI people for making our Aunties Cheer. The cheer goes like this..
Group cheer:
Flea!
Flea fly!
Flea fly aunties!
Sale ah!
20%, 50%, 80% sale ah!
Oh no more 80% sale ah!
Alamak ah alamak ah Gucci kena coop already!
Never mind ah never mind ah Prada...will look more sexy!
Go for facial, go for botox, go for sauna, go for spa!
Ahhhhhh~
creative right? 1/2 hour job lea...ok, then went for water confidence jump. At first, one sir said cannot jump but luckily Yong Zhi Sir saved us...Actually i was very nervous to jump from the jetty. But after thinking that i have done the ropes, why not? For better or for worst. Jumped in. I actually would like to jump again but cannot. Then, went to shower and did last minute preparations. Went for dinner. then campfire, it was fun on the Sec 3 side but i think that the sec 2 were not very enthu. Did our skit and our cheer. From something serious can become comedy. Not bad,. Then, went to bed and slept.
Yesterday
Woke up at 6.30am. PT. BreakfaST. Went to exchange contact details. Then area cleaning. I was cleaning the canteen. In the end, we were 45 minutes earlier but because we had to wait for sec 2's we left for SG later. Went back to school. debrief then went home. Showered, wash clothes, eat then slept throughout the night.
Overall rating: 10/10!!!!
well,signing off
with love,
stranger
When there is A will, there is a way
Baby,top.
Sorry for not blogging last week. One whole week gone just like that. I will blog on the things happened and also the pictures taken. Do give in your patience as it takes time for all the pictures to load. There are plenty of pictures there
1st June, Monday..
It was Muz Birthday.Had Math ERP in the morning. Took pictures as i had nothing better to do..
Picture of the math Worksheet
another shot of the math worksheet
Jie Xin covering her face
Li Ting and Janet posing... Janet looks kinda'different'
Janet with Siti, taken randomly
Mr Pang blocked Diana
Finally, got a shot at Jie Xin!
After that, went to Toa Payoh and met Wahidah...
went to wrap Muz present...it is kinda bad. Pictures shown are taken from different angles
Then, we went to Muz House.
Pictures taken...
then, celebrated like hell. Went home at 11pm.
2 June Tues.
Another day of Math ERP.
Then, went to KFC. Mr Pang treat.
From the car to the shop.Pictures are placed as how it is.
1st-Mr Pang Teaching Janet
2nd-Siti and Diana
3rd-All of us squeeze into MR Pang Car
4th-Hilmi,Siti,Diana
5th-Hilmi,Jie Xin and Janet
6th-Hilmi and Jie Xin, how loving
7th-Look at the poor whipped potato mixed with chilli
8th-Diana eating her chicken...She was the last to finish
9th and 10th-Siti in random shots
after that, went to Jinghui house and baked. Then went home and can't really remember what i did.
June 3
1st day of camp. I was like 2 hours late.Nevermind, i can forget about bringing my thermometer. Then we did some camp stuff. At 12++pm went to campsite. 6PM, NPCC pupils are dismissed from campsite as we have our LMSC. Pictures are below. All are random shots
4th June/5 June
Went for LMSC at Hong Kah Sec. Then went to Campsite for campfire. 5th june was no different expect for the camp part.
7th June
went to MS Heng Wedding. She looked so hot. Bought her something from the Body shop. Below are the photos taken there.
i hope that this wraps up this week events
signing off
with love
stranger
Make choices wisely
Baby,top.
